My mind is strong. My body is strong. I am strong. I’ve spent years doing cardio and lifting free weights to increase my fitness level. I’m one of those rare people who actually enjoys exercising. I tried running for a year and I loved it until I found Zumba fitness. I even became a licensed Zumba instructor to ensure that I have access to new routines and formats. What I enjoy about exercising is the challenge, the feeling of accomplishment when I am done, the release of good endorphins, and the increase in stamina and endurance. Exercise has been a part of my daily routine and an ingrained habit. Going for more than a day or two without exercising causes me to feel out of balance. I am not looking forward to the halt in exercise over the next couple of months as I recover from 2 surgeries. My last workout session was on 11/3/16 and I miss it already. (Note: A few weeks ago,I broke my favorite yellow exercise band in the picture while training. That really bummed me out. I replaced the band exercises with 5 lb weights. I use 10 lbs for the others.)
Admittedly, in the last couple of years, I noticed that my stamina has decreased and that I was more tired in general. I attributed it partially to my overactive immune system. I continued to exercise despite being tired. I have been seeing an endocrinologist and a neurologist for years. Now, that I have a definite breast cancer diagnosis, it makes sense that I have been tired.
Yes, my strong body will serve me well in treatment, but not without my strong mind. I’ve been through a lot in my life, so I’m confident that I can withstand this experience. Like life, exercise has challenged me to push past my comfort zone despite pain. Having completed 1 surgery already, I can attest to times where I will be tired, sore, in pain, and anxious, but I can still be positive while experiencing these things. I was tired, sore and in pain over the weekend, but I had such an overwhelmingly feeling of contentment, love and gratitude for the support that I’ve received through this process so far that I didn’t focus on it.
That worn out space in my garage has been my oasis. Sometimes, I even like to work out in the dark. I look forward to getting back to it and becoming even stronger.
Here are some garage selfies: